I enjoy the presence of the dead spirits and I summon them to collect and create a greater chaos to rule mankind.

To let you know how this morbid fascination for death started ,we have to go back in time;

Once I was away, far away from this anger lurking inside me eating me up alive.

So much hate so much pain and all this dark emotions i side of me.

I now know that immortality is no longer dream but reality.

I cut myself with a sharp knife while thinking of a person I wanted to kill and it felt like nothing really , no pain..

Just vague feelings of redemption,satisfaction and emptiness like taking a break from this distorted world we live in.

I almost bled to death in the woods.

I thought it was better to harm myself than end up in prison before my life had begun.

I’ve never cut myself more than that one time, I don’t have the need to , nor am I suicidal.

I just needed to let some steam out I guess.

I don’t dwell on the past happenings for long unless it gives me clues to the presence.

I have found out that I left some part of my soul out there in the forest where I almost bled to death.

I “torment” myself like a human vessel and I get an ecstasy every time I see me or my goddess blood running and opens up a veil to another world that is revealing more and more of itself as I day by day sacrifice my blood to obtain the highest power of souls and energy.
I cannot turn back now, I’ve gone too far into the demon realm but I love it here and I swear not to return when the work is done.
I speak,write and artistically approach my work from the light and dark souls that give me the the knowledge of the hidden world, the world only few of you will know now (luckily).
There is a key to an entire world in our unconsciousness, subconsciousness and our possibilities as human beings is almost limitless to what we do and how we live now.
This world of opportunities has existed since the dawn of time and we often visit when we dream or meditate.
Sleep is after all the cousin of death.
Do you remember your dreams?
If you do start writing it down or try to remember even more because it’s possible to go (back) further into a dream if you wake up before it’s time.
Our mind/soul is an amazing tool.

Some souls are very impatient because they do not know they are dead or have things to tell their beloved ones before they leave and this is where my work begins, where it ends I don’t know and I don’t want to know anymore than I already do.
The more knowledge the more pain and sorrow, and this is so true but one can never tell or share what one think,see or hear.
One can only give hints and small clues to the people ‘involved’.

If one does there is a chance that people will fear you or see you as a madman and I do somehow understand the scepticism around it.
The dead souls are not dangerous to most people, they are tricky and will test you or “play” with your mind if you let them so one better focus or lose ones mind.
Little did I know when I started this path that there is no way to lock/unlock the portals,keys and gates you’ve opened up and obtained through the years.
I studied magic since I was in my very early teens and several times I almost gave up because nothing gave me the satisfaction I had hoped for.
About 20 years later I received the gift I’d yearned for but I can’t tell you what it is because that would be the same as lending one’s sword to the enemy at the battlefield.
I felt and enormous relief and was very thankful for the gift I was blessed with, it showed me that even though the lonely times,storms I never stopped believing in what I do.
Some things are not supposed to come easy and some things are better of untold.
I can say that it’s not for everyone and it’s not some power to “abuse” and all your actions will have consequences just like in “regular” life.
There are rules that apply to those who enter the spirit world and it’s very important to follow the guidelines you’re given along the way.
Be very careful of who you trust with your thoughts,questions etc.
Not everyone is who they pretend to be.
Those who say the less is usually the ones with the most knowledge but since there is a time and place for everything that happens in our lives those who know will not tell more than absolutely necessary because they know how important it is to walk in the right direction at the right time and other such experiences.
It is not just a “game” you can turn off when you’re tired.
Most of us are born with an open mind but even if you have an open mind and see something and almost nobody believe in you and just taunt you , you will eventually continue with what you do quietly or forget it’s existence during your childhood.
Luckily I had a close person who believed in me.
That person never give me any advice though, she just tells if I’m “right” or “wrong” in my search.
It is when you start questioning the “obvious” things in life you will start getting answers, but don’t ask for more than you can receive and by that I mean it as literal as I can get.
Let’s take an example; If you ask for something that is bigger than a book and impossible to explain in one book or even during life time.
You will receive more info than your brain is capable of handling and it might drive you insane in worst case scenario.
Some people are just more sensitive towards picking up energies/auras etc than others.
Some people can hold a stone or feel it’s energies working through the body whilst others don’t feel that same presence, even so it does not mean they are incapable of doing the same things.
They may just need to open up a bit and relax because if you’re not open to things it won’t work.
If you refuse to let yourself feel what you truly feel you will feel very empty after some years.
We are what we surround ourselves with.
That is why it is important to have a sense of balance in life.
A starting point which you go back to and pick up the pieces if you get lost in life and if you have been kind to yourself and opened up for love,empathy and similar emotions you may meet someone who will hold the light for you and guide you in the right direction.
We are reflections of our inner self and sometimes we may not even know that we reflect a negative energy to others around us on a daily basis.
This is why it’s important to get in touch with your inner self or go see someone who can help you get rid of all the garbage you go around with.

TBC..